Lost

Suddenly the wind started blowing in all directions, and you just froze. It is like you are standing on a piece of wood while the entire world around you is spinning out of control. The wind should affect your mind, but it doesn't. 

You are not yourself, and you know you should be reacting to what's happening around you. But you don't; your flesh can feel the wind and all the debris. Sadly, it doesn't do anything for you. When did you become this person, people expect you to react to everything, and you do follow what they say all the time.

But for some reason, you are not doing it in this instance. You are not feeling anything for the devastation that is happening around you. You are not paralyzed by what you see or feel anything. You pinch your skin to see if you become numb, but you don't.

What is happening? You always assumed the worse would break you down in pieces. Now the worse is taking place, and you are standing still in the middle watching it all happen. Maybe one day you will feel the strong wind when everything is calm around you.