Questions are all I have
What Will I get? Well, it depends on what I believe?
If I believe in evil, then burning a village is the way of paradise for me.
If I believe in kindness, saving a village is the way to reach the clouds in heaven.
All of these are rewards that you feel in your heart and neither of them holds any sort of value to the world that constantly exhausts smoke outside. Does the world care? The things I have seen, I can clearly say barely, well it depends. At the moment sure they will care, an hour later, the loudest voice will turn to the softest moan.
Let's say a man that doesn't have faith in anything, what will he do when he reaches the point in his life to make a decision? Will he help or abandon the people in need for a selfish goal. While the teaching from the river of textbooks surely promotes the act of kindness, the words turn hollow when it comes to any sensation of reward from it. More often the entirety of kindness seems as empty as the gesture to the people.
The questions I ask for a reason, what If the cruel faith lunges out of the pines and takes the life of someone who has been kind to others for his whole life? What then? Do I see it as an exception to the rule and still follow the road of good or accept it?
What to do then? What will people think when they see someone getting crucified to save others, then die a miserable death by the hands of the maker. It is the maker that taught us to be kind to others for eternal blessing. A dilemma isn't it? Is there supposed to be a line on how much kindness a person needs to share to the world? If that hypothesis is somewhat remotely even true, then who gets kindness in the world and who doesn't?
Should people only help good people and avoid even making eye contact with the bad ones? Or save the bad ones in the act of giving them the chance for repentance. What will happen after that? Will the good ones stay good or turn to the side of evil or vice versa.
My question inevitably leads to who is watching? Are the gods of the world aware when the good deeds get done by the people or the devil watches them to take their lives away to fill it with more sinners in this cursed world. Because it has been happening a lot lately, I see sinners drowning in the blood of pure, living, breathing life rather than the angels trying to fly in the sky without any wings on their back.
It got me asking, why should the angel strive for the sky to please an unknown entity, since the other side carries an hurtful answer, as all the sinners in the world that used to be angels. But now they found their purpose on the ground. If you look down, you will soon see the bodies of those who tried to do some good in this world with the little time they had when they were breathing. Now look up, you will see people with blood on their hands wearing the cleanest cloth as they drink away the champagne of life with pride and honor.
It only seems, I might be wrong here, life is not fair but for some reason, I am reaching the conclusion- Death sure is. As the reaper comes after everyone, whether they did anything good or bad in life. Everything leading up to death is different, death itself is kind & generous. A single blow of the scythe that evaporates our soul from the world. That single blow also takes care of our pain and the tears that can't be seen by anyone.
I used to believe in a far more different view of the world, where the god used to be the arbitrator of life and death, but now I realized, even if the force god doesn't exist or if it does. It controls the man up until its death, it blesses them with happiness and a great deal of pain. As it is all part of living, there is no good and bad to his eyes, it only sees man and woman, and then the game of life desperation begins.
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